You know those days, when your gut tells you something bad is coming; like your spirit is warning you; be careful. That is how my day began, that was the feeling that my day was engulfed in, but I shrugged it off. I lingered in my room longer than I usually do on mornings, said goodbyes, as I left the house like it would be the last time, did things I wouldn’t normally do; it was as if, coming back, was a gamble.

THE EMERGENCY ROOM

I saw my life flash right before my eyes;
And the next thing I saw,
Were white curtains;
Like the gates of heaven, staring right back at me;

Dipping in and out of consciousness;
Haggling with God,
To save my life;
To give me one more chance;

All I could think;
Was that this was the end;
That this is how I went;
That this is how my story came to an end;

I was pumped with drugs so much;
That I felt nothing;
I knew I was in pain;
Saw the blood oozing from my body;

But yet;
Pain felt like a distant emotion;
Something I was beyond feeling;
Something I would never experience again;

There I was;
One man, like the many men who’d been here before me;
Lost in a state that many can only call limbo;
Knowing that only two options lay before me.

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