“Stages of Grief: Acceptance, is a piece I wrote a while back when my Dani died. It’s a piece that tries to dissociate from the pain of grieving, through appreciating some of the fond memories that defined parts of our relationship. It’s a small tribute to the woman I called my grandma.” STAGES OF GRIEF: … Continue reading STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
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THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS There was a time we dealt with pain and grief,Through distractions;And seeing myself now;None of that has changed; I worry about my avoidance behavior;My way of trying not to deal,Through distractions;And I wonder what will happen when it all bursts open; Wounds we never tender nor take care of;Parts of ourselves we abandon;Just … Continue reading THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
FAMILY MATRIARCH
FAMILY MATRIARCH One of the things worse about grief;Is how empty it leaves you feeling;The changes contemplated;The memories left behind;And the more I could have done; Last of your generation;And the one who kept it all together;What happens now when you are gone;And people fall apart?You are the glue that kept us together through your … Continue reading FAMILY MATRIARCH
THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE
THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE Some pasts,Eventually become places we do not revisit anymore; Even after hurt has been addressed,And healing has graced us; I think what I struggled with for a long time,Was not being able to really let go; But we are learning to release all that could have been,And all that will … Continue reading THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE
THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY
THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY It was in trying to get over her,That we really stopped writing; We became scared of our own vulnerability;And the words stopped becoming a vessel to express all that we felt; It was through her,That we really broke, We lost bits of ourselves because of her;And we lost all … Continue reading THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY
DID YOU FEEL IT TOO?
DID YOU FEEL IT TOO? I don’t know when exactly it happened,But we got to a point,Where we stopped feeling what we wrote;The words became devoid of emotions,And it felt like we stopped searching for ways to express,All that we felt; Did you feel it too?When these words stopped carrying emotion;When the words became items … Continue reading DID YOU FEEL IT TOO?
LETTERS TO OLUDHE (61)
LETTERS TO OLUDHE Along the way,As we lived this life,And attempted to heal our broken heart,We began fighting our emotions,And all that we felt;We had wanted to move on with nonchalance;But in doing this;We lost the beauty of feeling all that we felt;And that’s how I somehow lost bits of me;While trying to get over … Continue reading LETTERS TO OLUDHE (61)
HOLLOW
HOLLOW It was a hollowness,Like nothing we had felt before; But we allowed it to stay,And make a home of us; We gave it space and shelter,And hoped this way, we would find respite; I think this is what loss is;It has to be felt and addressed. TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART LOVE & PAIN
WE LIVED THROUGH THIS PAIN
“We Lived Through This Pain,” is a lot about finally letting go of an attachment that you had held on to for so long, and in the process had broken you; not only because you held on for so long, but also because it ended with you being heartbroken. This piece is about finally coming … Continue reading WE LIVED THROUGH THIS PAIN
THERE’S NO ONE WAY
THERE’S NO ONE WAY Detaching comes in different ways;And through different circumstances, At times,All you need is conviction to move on; At times,You need to block them everywhere to feel okay; There’s extremity,But there’s also balance; You find it,Always, in your own way. LOVE & PAIN
Oganga Mangiti 