LETTERS TO OLUDHE When we lost our grandma,We felt a pain, and still do;That couldn’t be eased,Or respite found from;And even now,We still feel it as deep as when we first found out;But memories of you have kept us,And they still do,And we have somehow found a way to be okay with this pain;Nind gi … Continue reading LETTERS TO OLUDHE (63)
Death
GRIEF AND GRIEVING
GRIEF AND GRIEVING Grief and grieving changes you;It scours bits of you that you hold personal;And makes a home out of it;It has you on chokehold;And threatens the end of all that you hold dear and sacred; But I guess;We have to figure out a way;We have to take it all one day at a … Continue reading GRIEF AND GRIEVING
EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE
EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE You lived such a full and wholesome life;Multiple generations;Always adapting;But still staying consistent; It’s difficult;When people tell you to explain love;It’s varied things;It’s every day things, it’s everything that could last a lifetime. TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART LOVE & PAIN
STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
“Stages of Grief: Acceptance, is a piece I wrote a while back when my Dani died. It’s a piece that tries to dissociate from the pain of grieving, through appreciating some of the fond memories that defined parts of our relationship. It’s a small tribute to the woman I called my grandma.” STAGES OF GRIEF: … Continue reading STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS There was a time we dealt with pain and grief,Through distractions;And seeing myself now;None of that has changed; I worry about my avoidance behavior;My way of trying not to deal,Through distractions;And I wonder what will happen when it all bursts open; Wounds we never tender nor take care of;Parts of ourselves we abandon;Just … Continue reading THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
FAMILY MATRIARCH
FAMILY MATRIARCH One of the things worse about grief;Is how empty it leaves you feeling;The changes contemplated;The memories left behind;And the more I could have done; Last of your generation;And the one who kept it all together;What happens now when you are gone;And people fall apart?You are the glue that kept us together through your … Continue reading FAMILY MATRIARCH
MAY DAY, MAY DAY
MAY DAY, MAY DAY Even as we seek distractions;And hope for warmer and chilled days;I hope we’ll be okay;And hope we’ll be able to always keep your legacy; May 26 be somehow kinder;May the lessons learnt never be forgotten;May we learn to live with death as we do life;May we run our race too as … Continue reading MAY DAY, MAY DAY
REST EASY G
REST EASY G Writing this now;I never thought,There were emotions that couldn’t be felt; Or rather,That it was possible, to feel everything all at once;And not be able to feel anything, because you can’t choose what emotion to feel; These last couple of days;It’s been slowly hitting me;And today feels like the crescendo; You lived … Continue reading REST EASY G
THE ONES WHO REMAIN
THE ONES WHO REMAIN The worst thing about mourning,The loss of a friend to suicide,Is the understanding,That it actually is,A possible way out; The realization,That someone you ate and laughed with;Actually took their lives;Leaves you with some comfort;That you are not alone; And that could push you over the edge,That could be the one thing;That … Continue reading THE ONES WHO REMAIN
LETTERS TO OLUDHE (43)
LETTERS TO OLUDHE To know,That death ntie kodwa;But still risking,Loving those we love;Still appreciating them,While they still walk with us. LOVE & PAIN