LETTERS TO OLUDHE When we lost our grandma,We felt a pain, and still do;That couldn’t be eased,Or respite found from;And even now,We still feel it as deep as when we first found out;But memories of you have kept us,And they still do,And we have somehow found a way to be okay with this pain;Nind gi … Continue reading LETTERS TO OLUDHE (63)
Life
GRIEF AND GRIEVING
GRIEF AND GRIEVING Grief and grieving changes you;It scours bits of you that you hold personal;And makes a home out of it;It has you on chokehold;And threatens the end of all that you hold dear and sacred; But I guess;We have to figure out a way;We have to take it all one day at a … Continue reading GRIEF AND GRIEVING
EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE
EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE You lived such a full and wholesome life;Multiple generations;Always adapting;But still staying consistent; It’s difficult;When people tell you to explain love;It’s varied things;It’s every day things, it’s everything that could last a lifetime. TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART LOVE & PAIN
STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
“Stages of Grief: Acceptance, is a piece I wrote a while back when my Dani died. It’s a piece that tries to dissociate from the pain of grieving, through appreciating some of the fond memories that defined parts of our relationship. It’s a small tribute to the woman I called my grandma.” STAGES OF GRIEF: … Continue reading STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS There was a time we dealt with pain and grief,Through distractions;And seeing myself now;None of that has changed; I worry about my avoidance behavior;My way of trying not to deal,Through distractions;And I wonder what will happen when it all bursts open; Wounds we never tender nor take care of;Parts of ourselves we abandon;Just … Continue reading THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
FAMILY MATRIARCH
FAMILY MATRIARCH One of the things worse about grief;Is how empty it leaves you feeling;The changes contemplated;The memories left behind;And the more I could have done; Last of your generation;And the one who kept it all together;What happens now when you are gone;And people fall apart?You are the glue that kept us together through your … Continue reading FAMILY MATRIARCH
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LETTERS TO OLUDHE Healing at times,Doesn’t mean letting go,Because we don’t want to let go;And there’s really nothing to heal from;At times it means being okay;Adjusting;Finding grace;Seeing the beauty of what it was like to have her in your life;We are miles apart, but we are here,We are very present;And you know you will always … Continue reading LETTERS TO OLUDHE (62)
WHAT HAPPENED AFTER
WHAT HAPPENED AFTER We revisited a lot of old emotions;And I think that came from finishing our healing cycle; Some emotions just had to be let out;We once avoided writing about them, but now we release; We found beauty,And it was beautiful, it still is; New journeys find us when we least expect them,And I … Continue reading WHAT HAPPENED AFTER
MAYBES, AND PART OF US ONCE DOING THIS LIFE THING TOGETHER
MAYBES, AND PART OF US ONCE DOING THIS LIFE THING TOGETHER Maybe in a different life,The intimacy we once shared,The closeness we once had,And the love we once showed;Will find its way between you and I, But we won’t keep longing for it,As if beauty could only be found;In each other;We are releasing with grace; … Continue reading MAYBES, AND PART OF US ONCE DOING THIS LIFE THING TOGETHER
THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE
THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE Some pasts,Eventually become places we do not revisit anymore; Even after hurt has been addressed,And healing has graced us; I think what I struggled with for a long time,Was not being able to really let go; But we are learning to release all that could have been,And all that will … Continue reading THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE