GRIEF AND GRIEVING Grief and grieving changes you;It scours bits of you that you hold personal;And makes a home out of it;It has you on chokehold;And threatens the end of all that you hold dear and sacred; But I guess;We have to figure out a way;We have to take it all one day at a … Continue reading GRIEF AND GRIEVING
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STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
“Stages of Grief: Acceptance, is a piece I wrote a while back when my Dani died. It’s a piece that tries to dissociate from the pain of grieving, through appreciating some of the fond memories that defined parts of our relationship. It’s a small tribute to the woman I called my grandma.” STAGES OF GRIEF: … Continue reading STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS There was a time we dealt with pain and grief,Through distractions;And seeing myself now;None of that has changed; I worry about my avoidance behavior;My way of trying not to deal,Through distractions;And I wonder what will happen when it all bursts open; Wounds we never tender nor take care of;Parts of ourselves we abandon;Just … Continue reading THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
FAMILY MATRIARCH
FAMILY MATRIARCH One of the things worse about grief;Is how empty it leaves you feeling;The changes contemplated;The memories left behind;And the more I could have done; Last of your generation;And the one who kept it all together;What happens now when you are gone;And people fall apart?You are the glue that kept us together through your … Continue reading FAMILY MATRIARCH
THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY
THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY It was in trying to get over her,That we really stopped writing; We became scared of our own vulnerability;And the words stopped becoming a vessel to express all that we felt; It was through her,That we really broke, We lost bits of ourselves because of her;And we lost all … Continue reading THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY
DID YOU FEEL IT TOO?
DID YOU FEEL IT TOO? I don’t know when exactly it happened,But we got to a point,Where we stopped feeling what we wrote;The words became devoid of emotions,And it felt like we stopped searching for ways to express,All that we felt; Did you feel it too?When these words stopped carrying emotion;When the words became items … Continue reading DID YOU FEEL IT TOO?
TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART
TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART I think I really pushed myself,To finish the poems, letters and stories in that collection; I gave my heart and soul to that book;And most importantly; I gave parts of me I didn’t even know I had; Whether the collection will be widely read;Or it will only be consumed by … Continue reading TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART
WE LIVED THROUGH THIS PAIN
“We Lived Through This Pain,” is a lot about finally letting go of an attachment that you had held on to for so long, and in the process had broken you; not only because you held on for so long, but also because it ended with you being heartbroken. This piece is about finally coming … Continue reading WE LIVED THROUGH THIS PAIN
FLIPPING SCRIPTS
“Flipping Scripts,” is a poem that comes from the need to understand your own hurt, and the possibility of the traumas that may come from it. It also comes from a point of the need to understand your attachment styles, and the reason they exist. The hope and desire, to be whole again after so … Continue reading FLIPPING SCRIPTS
THESE PATTERNS
THESE PATTERNS My attachment style thrived with you;You showed me love in a familiar way;You kept me safe in this cycle; These patterns made sense after you left;These patterns represented aspects of my past;These patterns kept me looped. LOVE & PAIN