GRIEF AND GRIEVING Grief and grieving changes you;It scours bits of you that you hold personal;And makes a home out of it;It has you on chokehold;And threatens the end of all that you hold dear and sacred; But I guess;We have to figure out a way;We have to take it all one day at a … Continue reading GRIEF AND GRIEVING
Pain
STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
“Stages of Grief: Acceptance, is a piece I wrote a while back when my Dani died. It’s a piece that tries to dissociate from the pain of grieving, through appreciating some of the fond memories that defined parts of our relationship. It’s a small tribute to the woman I called my grandma.” STAGES OF GRIEF: … Continue reading STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
THROUGH DISTRACTIONS There was a time we dealt with pain and grief,Through distractions;And seeing myself now;None of that has changed; I worry about my avoidance behavior;My way of trying not to deal,Through distractions;And I wonder what will happen when it all bursts open; Wounds we never tender nor take care of;Parts of ourselves we abandon;Just … Continue reading THROUGH DISTRACTIONS
FAMILY MATRIARCH
FAMILY MATRIARCH One of the things worse about grief;Is how empty it leaves you feeling;The changes contemplated;The memories left behind;And the more I could have done; Last of your generation;And the one who kept it all together;What happens now when you are gone;And people fall apart?You are the glue that kept us together through your … Continue reading FAMILY MATRIARCH
MAYBES, AND PART OF US ONCE DOING THIS LIFE THING TOGETHER
MAYBES, AND PART OF US ONCE DOING THIS LIFE THING TOGETHER Maybe in a different life,The intimacy we once shared,The closeness we once had,And the love we once showed;Will find its way between you and I, But we won’t keep longing for it,As if beauty could only be found;In each other;We are releasing with grace; … Continue reading MAYBES, AND PART OF US ONCE DOING THIS LIFE THING TOGETHER
THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE
THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE Some pasts,Eventually become places we do not revisit anymore; Even after hurt has been addressed,And healing has graced us; I think what I struggled with for a long time,Was not being able to really let go; But we are learning to release all that could have been,And all that will … Continue reading THE THINGS THAT NEVER WERE
MY ONCE SPECIAL PERSON
“My Once Special Person, is a piece that addresses old hurt, and why it took so long to really heal and deal, with that hurt that came from loving someone, who you gave special bits of yourself to. It looks at some of the causes of the anger that remained, and the hurt that was … Continue reading MY ONCE SPECIAL PERSON
THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY
THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY It was in trying to get over her,That we really stopped writing; We became scared of our own vulnerability;And the words stopped becoming a vessel to express all that we felt; It was through her,That we really broke, We lost bits of ourselves because of her;And we lost all … Continue reading THE ONE WHO LEFT ME EMPTY
LETTERS TO OLUDHE (61)
LETTERS TO OLUDHE Along the way,As we lived this life,And attempted to heal our broken heart,We began fighting our emotions,And all that we felt;We had wanted to move on with nonchalance;But in doing this;We lost the beauty of feeling all that we felt;And that’s how I somehow lost bits of me;While trying to get over … Continue reading LETTERS TO OLUDHE (61)
TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART
TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART I think I really pushed myself,To finish the poems, letters and stories in that collection; I gave my heart and soul to that book;And most importantly; I gave parts of me I didn’t even know I had; Whether the collection will be widely read;Or it will only be consumed by … Continue reading TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART